People ask me must it be like to hear spirit voices all the time?
Here’s my roundabout answer.
A friend once said to me it took a lot of courage for me to come out as a psychic medium. I didn’t totally understand what he meant at the time as he was a lot older than me and had been dealing with being spirit in the human realm for a lot longer than me. He was also a shaman, a healer, and he knew what it was like to show yourself to the world. For when you show your power and your identity, people usually form opinions and ideas about you. It is then up to us, to let any opinions bounce off us. It is up to us to trust who we are and what we see, and to know that we are who we are. Everyone has such a different life and different experiences, thoughts, feelings, background, history, future etc.
So when I am asked what is it like to hear spirit voices all the time, I respond that I don’t know any different, it is normal for me and always has been.
I am so in touch with the spirit world that when I was 18 a spirit being, a woman, told me that I would be going away until I was 26. She said I would then come back into my body. She asked me if this was ok and I said yes. I felt different. I felt alone. Disconnected from them somehow.
I got really caught up in learning and growing through leaving the family home, developing a long-term live-in relationship, meeting new and different people, getting university degrees in psychology and working as a psychologist. I was very busy, but something wasn’t right.
I can’t expect anyone to understand this fully, it is a powerful concept to grasp, but I once read about a Buddhist term called a ‘walk-in’. It’s where another soul comes into your body to help you through a time in your life, whether its for your learning or theirs or both, someone can take over the reins for you. As a psychic medium, I’ve had spirits use my body to communicate, so the experience is not unusual for me.
When I was 26, my spirit came fully back into my body.
At the time, my best friend who had known me since I was a child, actually said to me, “You’re back! It’s like you are the person I used to hang with when we were kids. You’ve been gone!” I felt like for those lost years of my life I was only half present, like something special had been taken away from me. I couldn’t pick it exactly, but when spirit, my spirit came fully back into my body everyone knew it.
I was doing readings again; I was seeing things clearly again. I knew spirit, I lived and breathed spirit, I felt whole again. I felt intense joy again. And I changed my life for the better. I left that version of the busy human life that I had created, because I knew it’s not what I had dreamed about and what I could have. The life as a psychologist, in a relationship with an atheist who worshipped money, living in a house on a busy city street, was not what my spirit knew was best for it – for my human life.
And so, I re-created my human life in line with my core spiritual knowing and calling. I knew I was to write books, music, poetry, dance, find love, have children, live somewhere wonderful and really truly be myself. I knew I had a much higher calling to help others and to help the world wake up to our intuitive, spiritual core.
It was like I had been asleep, so I could learn and grow, but also so I would truly know who I was and who I was definitely not.
We all ‘leave’ spirit sometimes.
As children we are naturally connected to spirit. I was so connected. I remember it well. I remember always being in communion with them. It was just so natural, I was always talking to them. I knew no different.
Then we get older and tied up in our busy lives – learning, working, growing, experiencing relationships, doing and striving – we can lose the connection for a while, or at least it is sort of hidden if you like, under all the activity and the beautiful human moments that we lose ourselves in.
It’s still there, the spirit world and psychic sense, it will kick in when we need it in subtle everyday ways without us even realising it. However, all of that open space we had as a child is no longer free, open, psychic space, it is no longer full of spirit contact. It is now filled with so much human life experience that the spirit voice gets drowned out somewhat. Of course we are here to experience and grow in our humanity so this is all part of the bigger plan! But there are such wonders to be had when we remember again, when spirit again takes precedence in our lives. The feeling is blissful. It is like coming home again and feeling whole.
And suddenly, spirit sense can come back like a freight train.
A life crisis, health issue, a breakdown due to stress, death of a loved one, accident, a reaction to medication or drugs, birthing a child, loss of a job, a wonderful holiday, anything in fact, can bring us closer to our spirit, put us back in touch with ourselves.
When spirit sense comes back in this way, when we are older, we become more fully conscious of it. It comes with knowing, with wisdom, maturity and awareness. It is much harder to lose this awareness then, when it is gained in this way and as an older person. When something has been lost and then found it is much more appreciated.
We can decide to embrace our spirituality. We can read spiritual texts, live spirituality on a daily basis (pray, have a sacred space in our homes etc), talk about it with others, have a certain type of spiritual vocabulary (understand that all things are for a reason for example) and carry on life as conscious spiritual beings having a human experience.
When we do this, we can then truly see and live an authentic spiritual life.
What I mean by this is we can see beyond the daily pretences of the human condition and the human trap. We can see beyond the little things we have gotten caught up in, in the everyday common archetypes, and feel a calling to help, to inspire, to serve. We can feel a need for peace and for integrity and honesty in all our dealings. We want to be the best we can be and we can see the best in others. We strive to share love and receive love.
We can also see magic in others and in the world. We can see, often, what others cannot. A light that shines within all beings. We share our light with others, and we meet others who share their light, often at different levels of sharing to our own. You know when you meet a beautiful light human being. And you know when you meet one who has negative thoughts and feelings and how they don’t feel as light or as loving.
And it’s our thoughts that definitely set us apart.
I go around meditating on being love, on being pink swirly pearly love.
I’m going to be different to someone going around in their world thinking about how angry they are with someone.
I’m going to be different to someone who is fearful of life and who doesn’t believe in themselves.
I think to myself, I’m a worthwhile and loving, special, kind, happy human being with so much to offer the world and those around me.
I’m going to be different to someone who is always worried about money and always thinking they’ve got to show how successful they are or else they don’t feel they are good enough in the world.
When we count our blessings regularly, and believe that we are worthy, just because we live and breathe and because we are doing our best in our own way in the world – whether it is that we smile at people nicely, we try our best to treat all others kindly at our work, we really appreciate our partner or have fun, happy, connected moments with our children – we can feel happy within ourselves.
No one else can make us feel happy. This has to come from an inner contentment, an inner knowing, which comes through positive inner thoughts and feelings and through being a loving, helpful and kind person to others.
This positive thinking is a learned thing.
And if we haven’t been taught it, that’s ok. We teach ourselves. We practice. We learn. We just keep inputting good thoughts until we get it, we get used to inputting good thoughts. Before you know it, the aura you are putting out into the world, your vibe, will be clear, clean, positive, peaceful and very attractive to other sensitive souls.
At any time we can create the space required for spirit to re-enter our lives.
Meditation, mindfulness, relaxation, being in nature, spirit dreams, music, dance, journalling, creating sacred spaces, making love, laughing, mindful dance/walks and movement, yoga and mindful body stretching, conscious speech, deeply meaningful and connected conversations with others and taking time for yourself; all of these provide doorways to the spirit to become strong and clear again.
So we come back to ourselves. To the true nature of our spirit.
This true nature includes all the goodness you desire to be, that you know you already are.
It includes kindness, joy, compassion, sharing, trusting, optimism, positivity, energy, peacefulness, humour, receiving and giving love, giving, acceptance, non-judgement, presence, hope, light, enjoyment, childish wonder, coping, reflection, inner strength, knowing, a sense of deep life meaning, and a spirituality so vibrant you shine and all manner of awesomeness of being that you can imagine!
This, to me, is what it means to come back to spirit.
With love,
Amanda
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